Tuesday, April 7, 2009

so frustrated

What upset me more than anything is when I actually work really really hard on something and still fail. If I don't study for a test very much and get a D it doesn't phase me. But, when I see my fiance work his ass off to pass a math exam just so he can graduate college, after his advisor and registar already screwed him over, and he doesn't pass it kills me on the inside. We both worked extremely hard, to fail. All that we want right now is the security of our degree, and a job. I don't know where either one is. I wasn't going to stress, I wasn't going to get nervous, and I wasn't going to get scared. Now, I am scared. Money is running out, time is running out and I have never felt more helpless. If I could screw Simpson over, the way they screwed me over, I would. If I could do anything that would make someone who I am paying there salary actually care about my and my sitatuations as human being than I would take back every piece of shit that I have said about them. But I can't and that makes me more angery than I have ever felt in my life.
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  1. TawnyApril 7, 2009 at 9:08 PM

    I have a new blog address! http://almostthirtyflirtyandthriving.blogspot.com/

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  2. JulieApril 7, 2009 at 11:11 PM

    Ally, I completely hear you on this. There is of course nothing I could possibly say to make the future less scary and stressful...just know that I am in the same boat, and one way or another we will get through it and move on with the rest of our lives. You are amazing, and Chad is too, and I think you guys should spend the next month being so excited about what an awesome future you have ahead of you being married! Don't let this rain on your parade, this is your time, your big day :-)

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  3. J.MEApril 10, 2009 at 12:31 PM

    Thanks Jules!!!! I appreciate that! You are right!

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